Glad you’re gonna make a full recovery... that’s what really matters more than anything.... and once you heal up you’ve got a long life of skiing and biking ahead... and you will want to push your limits at times but you just need to be a little smarter and have a better mindset.... like maybe find a buddy to help coach you through those techier jumps for example. Or if you decide your done with jumps, there’s still endless fun and endless goals to chase both on snow and dirt.
I came close to the edge once w a huge backie overshoot- multiple vertebrae, hip socket, femur, tib, miniscus, hip labrum...
it really makes you think twice about these kinds of action sports.... and I know I makes a lot of my friends and family sick hearing about these injuries (I just retore my ACL at 28 years old) but I’m still not over it 😂
at times told myself and others that I wasn’t gonna push to those levels again. I went SICKO MODE in the gym, yoga studio, on the bike for 3+ years because it just felt so good to be MOVING again and chasing general fitness and mental health BUT in my heart of hearts It was always about coming back stronger than ever and pushing myself on my skis again.
Almost 4 years out from that injury I tore my ACL towards the end of one of my all time best seasons. a season where at 28 I felt like 3 times the athlete I was at 24.... pushed myself as hard as I could in all aspects of skiing, felt stronger, looser, smoother, steezier than ever, bringing insane energy to the hill for the few hours I had every day.... ultimately pushed till I broke.
Was flowing so hard, smashing the big mountain, getting all my old tricks on terrain park and natural hits, skiing the most technical/exposed lines of my life, getting onto complex pillow/spine features, getting back into grinding rails and having a blast throwing my old tricks and seeking new feelings, getting my 3s 5s and 7s on multiple axis/directions, locking in grabs and finding new positions... taking my uphill cardio to new levels and unlocking new magical zones Way in the backcountry all while managing a hotel restaurant in COVID working on average 75 hours a week....
with all of 2020s bullshit it felt like skiing was all I had left and I leaned into it harder than ever. I began assuming risks that everyone (including myself) said were better left in my “youth.”
after what I consider one of the smartest and most well executed seasons of my life... I blew out my knee on the second or third nice spring skiing day. I had dreams of putting it all together and filming my park/spring skiing for a month straight, but I stepped outside of the process and got spanked.
I was pissed about work shit, pissed about girls, pissed at all my friends “working from home” chilling/playing call of duty through COVID while I was BUSTING ASS. I came out trying to film one of my hardest (for me) rail tricks first run ... didn’t warm up, didn’t go through my progressions, didn’t ski for fun at all, didn’t enter my flow state... tore up my knee third try. Im so pissed at myself even though I know it’s a risk I take every time I click in... it’s almost inevitable.
But despite the heart break and how much all of my injuries have fucked up my day to day life and put a lot of goals on pause I know that I want to get back to that level of skiing, I’d do anything to get there, and I know that there could be future consequences for that. I’m still young... and I know I’ll get another shot at some of those goals, but I know eventually I’ll have to tone it down and other life shit gets in the way.... but IM NOT DEAD YET and I’m gonna use it till I lose it. nothing lasts forever, you gotta squeeze that mf juice while you can.
the stuff that I LOVE is what gives me the strength and energy to be successful in “real life” if I didn’t have the mountains challenging me to be better I’d be a total Fatass and alcoholic basket case. Ppl think it’s insane that I like freestyle/backcountry skiing, mountain biking/downhilling, not to mention climbing and scrambling around sketchy exposure, winter camping etc. etc. but it’s what makes me feel ALIVE and I never plan on quitting, even though yes eventually the goal posts on some of those goals will move and you get older and things change... but I don’t think that means you have to turn your back on the things you love.
glad you’re gonna make a full recovery... scary but you’re so lucky to walk away.... I have friends who are paralyzed from bike jumps, avalanches, and some that are gone forever. You’ll get back to it but this will only make you wiser
Always live to ride another day 🤟🏻