so to begin...... i guess ill give some backround info. We met at school when i randomly chatted her up walking to class. Classic story. we hung out a few times hooked up and then quickly realized there is alot in common between us and that we clicked very well and in an interesting way. Started dating a month after we met
I had gotten out of a BAD relationship about a month and a half earlier and was looking to kindof just get over the last bad gf. I was chatting up/fucking as many honeys as possible (which now i look back and see as very lame) and once i was with her she held me down very quickly. She had broken up with her last bf 10 months before we met and it was apparent she was very very hurt by loosing him and was still attached when we started hooking up. When i asked her to be my girlfriend it took her about 3 weeks to fully commit to being mine and getting completely over him. He was her first everything.
Plot twist.... Before him she had been sexually abused by 2 guys and more or less raped from what she tells me. This changed her completely from being a very fun outgoing person to being a very quite introvert type person with a few close friends and him. From what i was told he really helped her get pat her past abuse and really really helped her. They were first friends and then they dated for about ten months and she was thinking about a future with him and everything. Long story short, he was going to college 4 hours from her and wanted to be free so he broke up with her. She was a mess from what she tells me and was very lost and missed him alot. They were fwb whenever they were able to be around each other. This went on for a long time after they broke up and continued basically until she met me.
We hooked up pretty quickly and had sex alot and very quickly realized we had something great. As time went on i started finding out all of these information about her past and she would oftentimes reference her ex boyfriend about alot of stuff. She would compare him to alot of things and a few times a week would kindof bring him up. This bothered me but i never really said anything because myself im honestly a very confident (and think of myself as an alpha type person so i dont worry about other males), but it really did seem sketchy to me. I could almost sense there was still alot between them. The one time i saw he was in her recent texta and i brought it up and she said there was nothing for me to worry about and they are just really good friends still. She doesnt seem to be the kind to be cheating or sketchy and she insists once she commits to a guy she only wants him and will never cheat or be unfaithfull.
So long story short again, i am 21 and she is 20. Ex is 19. We have been together for 4 months now and are on summer break from school. Im ab hr and a half from her and she is in her hometown were ex lives. i have seen her at least once a week for the entire summer thus far and everything has been great. The distance doesn't really bother me since it just makes it more awesome when i do get to see her. Everything is great between us and we if anything are closer now than when we lived together at the university. The issue to me is everything we are together she she shows me shit on her phone her ex is always in her top texts and her top fb messages. Every time she shows me stuff his name is there. I wanna bring it up and confirm again that nothing is going on and she sees him as just a friend but i sense and for some reason sense they have alot between them since he helped her with so much and she would consider getting back together with him. i honestly fear this knowing the circumstances between them and how close they live together in her home town for the summer.
Im not a controlling person and dont wanna be that guy that's like -dont talk to any guys except me... ect-, but i feel as if something might be happening with them and i do not want to waste my time, money and effort into continuing a relationship with her if she has something still going on with her ex. I feel kind of like a little bitch for feeling like this but i really do like her and she has been literally almost perfect as a girlfriend and i could easily see myself settling down with her even though im only 21. We have almost similar viewpoints on everything including liking almost all of the same food, same environment, and the same type of small logcabin type houses. What should i do lm? should i not sweat it since she is with me for a reason, or should i be worried? Should i bring it up? Or should i possibly let her go and move on to someone who is not involved with there ex still? Im leaning toward bringing it up and really asking for a deep honest answer and then going from there, meaning either moving on if she still has feelings for him or keeping her if she sais she doesn't, or lies to me and sais she doesnt. What do you think? I just dont wanna waste my time and get played really.