yo
Whuddup everybody. Got a few for ya today. Ill start it off with a
little tale from wed night. I was with some people at a persons house,
and we were all chillin out, most were smoking, some were drinking, and
the rest wished they were. Well, I picked up a drum and started to jam
out, and then the guitars came out, and damn we had a sweet sesh.
Charlie rocked it out in classical, joe rocked the base, and me on bongo.
So I am getting smoked out so I decide to go for a walk in the rain. Im
walking down the street, and Im thirsty as hell. mouth is so dry. Look
up to the sky to help me. Open my mouth, let the drops fall in. ....my
patience is not what it could be. Its not enough. I look at my down
jacket and see the pools of water sitting on it. So I start sipping?
licking? lapping? the water from my jacket, developing a true
appreciation for clean water, imaging myself as a deer in the morning
licking dew from the leaves. So as you could imagine, to a passerby I
might look a little ...wierd. Sure enough, on a porch across the street,
a HUGE guy all dressed in black, sketched out in the shadows, is
staring at me. I put a halt to my communion, and slowly walk on. As i
pass by im like Hey.... (dont kill me) - I was in a very sketch part of
ottawa) and i look up, and fuck me its a face from the past. Grade 7 and
8. Ed. So we talk , its cool, and yeah, went back to the house, and
then proceeded to attempt a trip to the bar, which just resulted in me
taking 6 buses back and forth each time i changed my mind about going
home or out.. by myself, falling asleep and missing my stop. Then I
bought chocolate and went home.
the end
so... life partners can be either girls or guys, just someone you live
with. I know its hard to get women out of their rut while they are in
school, they can be very focused and motivated. Yes, having a base is
good for your tower of beliefs (or pyramid in my case). However you
build your base is fine. I build mine through the experiential realm as
well as the formal education realm. I did the school thing, graduated
grade 13 with an 80 average, did a year of college didnt fail anything,
got a few As, Bs, and Cs. But thats not my life, its just a game, their
game. not mine. I play it because I can see that its best while youre
young and your brain is sponging up complex trains of thought and it
keeps my doors open for future change within my being. Now not everyone
should do what I do, there is no right way for everyone to be. Yes, we
need engineers. Yes, we need a whole bunch of humanity to build our
glorious cities. But whose dream are we all building? sure as hell isnèt
mine.
So I will be a part of this modern world, but im not devoting my life to
making it bigger. Im going to build something. Tree houses in the
rainforest. So i can shelter my friends, and help natures healing back
into the lives of the Lost Ones.
but hey, thats just me.
so sat night i went to see ani difranco, along with dan bern (check him
out).
awesome. just like her show in banff. I was surprised that even though
there were 20 times as many people in ottawa than banff, people were
still acting the same, not intimidated by the crowd. It was awesome. I
even talked to her (well, she replied to one of my heckles) i yelled ¨Come
live here!¨and everyone cheered, and then she said öw, twist my arm,¨and
then someone yelled that marijuana is legal here, and she goes ¨how
civil you guys are...see, im assimilating already¨....
yeah it was cool. I wanted to go live with her. i guess ill just have to
find one like her. Yeah, so shes a feminist, so what? Men deserve it,
and women should all be so inspired.
Well....after the concert I had another first (i dont know what the
first first was, meh)...I joined some friends in going to Icon, a gay
bar, for its last night open. That was quite the experience. Its wierd
having guys pat you on the ass, as polite as they are, and drag queens
freak me out. The hot girls making out along with the straight ones were
enough to keep me there, at least for a while. And then it was off to
bassets, oh yeah, The Basement. so many memories. Yeah, we rolled up,
and then he kicked everyone out, and then we went to the treehouse and
hit up the zipline and made a huge fire. mary stepped on this roof
outcropping that someone else built (of course it wasnt me..really it
wasnt) and down she went, landing on the stone path luc built. maybe she
was sitting trying to jump off, i didnt quite see, only the fall. I
fixed the zipline, now its really fast. gotta tighten that stopper, it
slides.
There is always someone who knows more. Sometimes I am that someone. My
words are not those of finality or absolution. They are the best I have
at that moment in time. Change is the only constant. Always searching
for the latest upgrade, be it relationships, beliefs, lifestyle or
location. A search for inspiration becomes our destination, and at one
point, the realization that the search IS the inspiration. A cities
power is awesome. To destroy, create, to drain and to fuel. they become
a test of the integrity of men and women. Dependancy. A requirement. As
we age, dependancy among friends is shunned, the assumption that
youthfullness leads to rebelliousness, self abuse, irresponsibility, and
all around troublemaking negativeness becomes the norm. Dependance
between a couple is promoted, knowing that couples result in
responsibility, kids, productivity, soberness, and all around healthy,
loving, nuturing, contributedness.
Self-made, self-driven ïndividuals¨become the role models for our
society. Those who fail become outcast, left to their own devices, lost
in the cracks, kept in check by the police who harass the unhealthy,
unwealthy. ¨troublemakers¨, ¨losers¨, ¨problematic¨ people, the only
record of their lives stored on police computers, to be used against
them should they rise up.
FUCK THEM.
Shawn.
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“Chaos often breeds life, when order breeds habit�
'The problem with today's youth is not that our fathers don't believe in us, but that we do not believe in our fathers.' - Me.
Än Eye For An Eye, And Soon The Whole World Is Blind
