I had such a crappy day today. Woke up at 8 got super productive and cleaned my place, did my laundry, picked weeds outside. Then I went to UCSB which is an hour away to finalize my registration next semester and they fucking cancelled registration walk ins today. So i had to drive an hour back home. I got home and my ex called me saying really mean things to me and telling me next time she gets laid she is going to call me right after to let me know. Bitchin. My dog is sick and he vomitted twice so i had to pick up his puke. Then i was putting away dishes and i broke two wine glasses in my hands. I went out side to pick weeds and I got bit by a spider and that fucking hurts really bad right now. White kid problems I know but still little things get to me. They are just so frustrating. And i feel like i have been on the brink of a panic attack all day. I've never had one but I have felt constantly like on edge. Like the feeling you get when you're about to get in trouble by your parents or cops or any authority figure. Like your body starts heating up and you get the bubble guts. I have had that all fucking day long and i have no idea why but its really just bothersome to me. I just wanna go lay in bed and fucking chill out but I have to go pick this girl up back in santa barbara right now because her car broke down. I would be like hey maybe I'll score a bj outta this! But nope right now i don't even want one. I do however hope this girl and me get to her house smoke a little and just lay down. I could use a nice cute girl falling asleep on my chest right now. You know when a girl puts her head on your chest and falls asleep you have your arm around her and you're staying awake watching some tv. That's what i need right now. And i take back that i don't want a bj idk what i was thinking i'd love to get some sex tonight.
mondays. fuck em.
