you know that one nagging feeling in the back of your mind that is always there - the one where you just seem to be waiting for something but you dont know what?
im sitting here soo unmotivated to do anything. my ski seasons over so i have nothing on flat land that i am remotely interested in working on or progressing at this point in time. i have my school work, but i just dont care enough; i made it to three of my classes this week. (which is bad im not trying to make that a habit). i havnt been to the gym in like 2 weeks and i get bombed off my ass every weekend and its the same old story over and over. this is not me. i hate this scheduled life that's planned out in which everyday is the same. i have my good friends, but they're stuck in the same motions i am and i think they're realizing it too. i need spontaneity. i am 20 years old and this life is going damn fast. i am technically done with 1/4 of it.. what the fuck?! soon i wont have the youth i do now and i wanna live life to full capacity. now.
in two years im packing my bags and throwing my shit into a car, and heading out west to see what i can see and hopefully make it somewhere with what i learned here. that's all i can think about. the moment i can get out.
but that's two years! i need a hobby or at least a car or some drastic change that i cannot think of at the moment.
this is prob dumb but i just cant seem to say things verbally and get the same point across and the same amount off my chest as when i write them down. so why not tell a bunch of kids i dont know on some forum? maybe you have some ideas or are stuck in this twenty-something rut too.
