my friend had an accident this weekend.
I wasn't there. I wish I was. I look at the situation. If it could have
been him. It could have been me. He fell 50 feet while climbing when
his rappel anchor failed. he smashed his ankle and leg bad, and
destroyed his hand. Needs some work. Lucky? Unlucky? Who knows.
This funk im in seems unbeatable. I can't smile. A bad weekend.....
They say he'll be ok. I wonder what they can mean? They mean he won't
die, and won't have major permanent disabilities. But he'll be far from
ok. at least for a few years. he's an athlete..a gymnast. ankle and
wrist.....so bad....I know, collarbone and leg..right after each other.
So what. So he sees who his real friends are now......see who cares....that's
nice...I don't know why or what im writing. I just have thoughts and
feelings bouncing around and I need an outlet....or five. He knew his
shit....he was climbing with experienced people....im not that
experienced....I don't need to learn that lesson again....but then again...do
I have a choice? Can I adopt a new lifestyle If required of my body?....maybe.
I know what I need. I need a hug. So does Graeme. Who is this really
about? well, as much as possible about someone else..but ultimately
about me. isn't every situation ultimately about you? how your actions
will make you feel? say please and thank you...why? to make yourself or
others feel better? that line is so blurred it's almost invisible..and
it is invisible to most...to most it's a formality.
I just want everyone to take everything you can from Graeme's situation...learn
from and support him. I lost 5 roomates this winter to the mountains...some
serious..2 airlifts...as well as my current physical problems...it can
and does happen.....I still work...but im beginning to fray. Let go
before the rope breaks. Can I? Will I be able to?...probably not...And I'll
be dead soon enough. well....you can probably tell im not in a smiling
mood.....but that doesn't mean you shouldn't be.
as the world turns.....
Wish you all the best my man......stay positive and read....it could be
a blessing in disguise.......things like this commonly are.
Milk this baby, MILK IT!!! for all it's worth..thats the best advice I
have.
until tomorrow...and tomorrow.....
Shawn
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