Effing Amazing
This weekend, I met the man of my dreams, and it's never been soo obvious that we belong together. It went amazing. It was like we knew each other our whole lives. We went to gaelic park, navy pier, the hancock observatory, and other places in chicago. We went to the mall and haunted trails and to a pizza buffet. We saw V for Vendetta. We laughed. We cried. We did everything i ever thought we could do. We were so relaxed and happier than we've ever been our whole life. When he left today, I cried harder than I've ever cried. I thought about all the stuff we couldn't do now. Saying goodbye was awful. I could've held him forever, but he had to hurry. He scurried away, out the car, and that was the last i've seen of him. The last i was supposed to see of him til late summer. The idea of waiting that long to see his face destroyed me. The only thing that brought comfort was talking about him visiting a little earlier. We need to see each other all the time. It's so sad that we can't always be together. I can still feel his arms around me now, and I hope I don't forget that feeling.
I hope I find some comfort. Things will go back to normal. Even though we can't do things together, or be together, or see each other.. we'll still love each other just the same. It's extremely hard, but we chose this for ourselves. There is nobody I would rather be with. I just hope I can see him more. The only thing that hushed my cries was the thought of him visitng again right when school ended. I haven't felt sad since then, so I pray to god it will happen.
Life is so amazing. I've proven everyone wrong, and we have an amazing story. Summer was a nightmare. I somehow got through it, though. I went from thinking i couldnt even talk to him on the computer ever again to him sitting with my family, eating dinner, and laughing. He played a board game with Gigi. He watched the kids play video games. We played Tennis and sat by the creek and watched Tommy Boy like 6 times. He met us all. We all loved him. And now my parents can see why I wait for him, and put myself through the pain of only seeing him a little. It's because he makes me sooo happy.
In conclusion.. those were the best days of my life, and I'll never forget them. I wont forget how it feels to be held by the person you want to spend forever with. I won't forget it.
^^ girls xanga entry
