im paranoid when i smoke. i can't be in a club high/stoned. it just won't work. because all the voice i hear around me i think are all talking about me because im acting weird from the pot.
only close friends. even then i go into slow motion mode and i can't even keep up with a conversation and it just molds together in one long word. only when someone talks directly to me can i understand them. i guess im very judgmental. but after reading alot of stories on www.EROWID.org
there are lots of people who get paranoid too so i learn just to go with the flow and not give a shit. although i try not to smoke as much as i used to because i fear that it is going to get worse or im going to be induced into a state of schizophrenia. not to mention that my hands shake all the time now ever so slightly, but still noticeable when i try to take pictures with a manual slr camera. its hard though. last year i was known as the person who would always be up for a session by my friends but now school has started and everyone has gotten back from their respective towns and cities they all expect me to keep smoking. i cut back though. so i start to drink, but i just can't afford it, because i don't have much spending money that i accumulated, and i want to buy a seasons pass to my local hill and i know weed is the cheapest way to get a drunk/stoned/high feeling. i guess liquor is something i could start again.