Hey ns, just thought that I would share this with you guys im in a state of confusion and it feels like I really fucked up this time. Im known to do stupid shit but I think my life just took a turn for the worse. So basically A couple nights ago me and some friends decided to check out this house party that we saw on twitter, We diddnt know who was throwing or who was gonna be there. We got there about 11:00 and it wasn't really our scene. But, since we diddnt have anything els to do and it was Saturday we decided to stay. The party seemed kinda sketchy, it was in a run down house with the type of people I usually dont like to be around. Anyway as time passed I started drinking to the point were I was mildly drunk and still aware of all my surroundings. This is where I made my first mistake. I think I had a 12 pack of stellas but im not to sure because this is where my memory starts to fade. I remember someone asking me for a beer and I was like "nawwww these are for me and my homies". So he was like alright how about I give the rest of whats in my cup for a couple beers. So I was like whatever why not, so sure enough I downed the mysterious liquid and soon started tripping out. I mean I was realy realy fucked, like passing in and out of consciousness. The only thing I remember after this was getting in the hotub out in the backyard and getting head from this random bitch. My friends ended up walking me home after this to make sure I was fine. The next morning I got the dreaded phone call from my homie telling me the bitch I got head from was a TRANSVESTITE!! I actually collapsed and almost had like a heart attack or something.
Ns, What the fuck do i do??? I honestly dont know how I can live this nightmare that will constantly be fucking my mind.