YoungGun.I have diagnosed anxiety. I automatically assume that everybody is judging me. If somebody even glances at me with a content look on their face it upsets me. I'm a happy, normal guy around good friends and family but I just assume that strangers hate me. It's really strange, not a confidence problem either. I do a lot of dangerous shit and I believe in myself but my mind tells me that people want me to fail. Might have something to do with all the bullying I dealt with when I was younger.
Personally, I think it is a conditioned trait. Psychologically you condition yourself because of stimuli you deem negative, in the case of your experiences it seems your stimuli was of a negative nature. And from there you overthink, which triggers fear response in the amygdala. Idk. It's only situational for me but when it happens it's like I get a rush of adrenaline and experience fight or flight. I'm unable to concentrate and stay calm no matter if I think the feelings are ridiculous. I think it's an evolutionary trait so to keep us away from prey. CBT would be cool but it's expensive and there's a long wait, could I do the techniques independently??
Hey, just because people eat the burger, doesn't mean they wanna know the cow.
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