unknowndeathjust saying you'll never do something is very absolutist and concrete, especially about something that is so widely accepted these days. as a young kid, i was super absolute about things like drugs, and i couldnt see any circumstances under which i would ever change my mind about drugs from what i'd been told by my elementary school nurse, and the mormon church is very absolute about drugs. also meth and weed are not the same shit. there's a very good objective reason to never ever do meth.
I fucked my meniscus, pelvis, and back (discs and vertebrae primarily along with a hemotoma) up pretty damn good about 16 months ago skiing. I got prescribed oxicodone for it (basically contin without the time delay), and I followed my prescription
word for fuckn word, but I still ended up getting screwed by it. Picture the absolute WORST flu like sickness you've ever had. Times the weakness/aches by about 10 along with the feeling of pins and needles in every muscle in your body, and take away the stomach aches/cramps... then you have the pain of an oxy withdraw. You hit rock fucking bottom and there is absolutely nothing you can do about it. Cause you just can't stop railing this magic pill. Sleep gets boned, 18 hours feels like about 6... it's a mental and physical addiction that you simply can't beat. I can't tell you how to get off it cause I've never met anyone who's been able to. My doctor gave me no indication how addictive it was, or that withdrawal would be equivalent to living a week in hell. Intentional OD didn't do shit except put me in a hospital, and make things worse.
Living high isn't living homie, at least not with an oxi high. And the few times I have smoked, it's "fun" while doing it, but afterwards I feel like shit (granted I have no tolerance for drugs... hella lightweight haha). I know pot isn't nearly as serious (if it even is serious) compared to oxi. I'm just trying to say I feel where OP is coming from with his abstinence from drugs (and weed, if you don't consider it a drug like others). Once I kick Oxi, I'm not touching any drug again man, they fuck you (me, everyone's body reacts differently) up real good. And until I'm done with oxi, I'm not gonna use any other drugs (even weed). Not an anti-drug rant, sorry if it sounds like that man. Just a rant about how I feel what OP means. My buddies smoke tons, along with other stuff. They're way chill people still, and they aren't going to hell or anything haha. I have no issues with people doing drugs. But they aren't for me, and I get what OP is saying when he says he's not gonna touch it. He's smarter than I was.
Given the choice I personally wouldn't ever have smoked or taken a pill like that in my life.
