Sadly, I didn't make this thread with the intention of posting funny YOLO quotes, but rather I have made it to discuss life itself. First of all, I am 16 years old, turning 17 this coming May. I understand that I have lived a short portion of my life and that I have many years to come. I have a problem. Day in and day out I feel as though I am not truly living my life. The daily routine at school is blatantly mind-numbing and dull. Not only am I away from my few friends that I have and my current girlfriend, but I'm also away from home and unable to go home when I wish to. I'm 16, but I feel like I'm wasting my childhood and my youth. I have very few friends here at school, and I spend the majority of my time alone working out, playing sports (still alone), or doing work in my room. Those circumstances, coupled with my long term struggles with depression, can leave me feeling pretty down and lonely a lot of the time. When I'm down I usually just think, and when I think I start to feel as though I've wasted my life thus far. You guys know the quote, "do what you love, and fuck the rest", from Little Miss Sunshine right? I've tried to apply that to my life and so far that's what i've been doing. Being at boarding school I can't do everything that i love (see my girlfriend, hang with friends, bike around town, skate, ski) but for the most part I do things that i love. I just don't do them with people because not many people share the same interests as me.
The obvious suggestion would be to go meet new people, but I've tried that. I've made "friends", but everytime I do they turn out to not really be true friends. I don't ask for much, I don't mind if my friends don't sit with me at lunch or don't do everything with me, that's obviously understandable, but being downright ditched by over 10 people multiple times at dinner feels really shitty. Besides, all my friendships have been one way friendships. I'm always the one asking to do things, inviting people places, suggesting to do stuff. The moment I stop, I lose all contact with the other person.
Sorry NS, I could rant about all of this non stop. My real question is if anybody here feels like they aren't doing what they like in their life, and what you suggest I should do about it?
