So here's the story. It involves two girls, named Annie and Jess, and me.
So basically where I stand right now is as follows:
I've liked Jess for a while, but she had a boyfriend for over a year
so I put it out of my mind. I also had a girlfriend, who I loved (for
a time, anyway), so I didn't really think about Jess very much at all.
I've been single since August; Jess just broke up with her boyfriend a
few weeks ago. She is absolutely head-over-heels in love with him, but
she's tired of being treated like shit, or so she says. He's an
asshole, by the way; he cheated on her three times that we (Jess'
friends) know of.
Despite all her talk of being fed up with him, she is having a very
hard time getting over him. And the last time they broke up, she
hooked up with two different guys within a week, then cut all ties with
them and got back together with the boyfriend. Now, it seems very
unlikely that she'll go back to the boyfriend, but she is still wants
to hook up with people to try and put him out of her mind. And one of
those people is me.
The problem is, I don't want to be just a stepping stone on her path
to forgetting him. I don't want to hook up with her once and forget it
ever happened, as she does. She wants to hook up with me to "get her
numbers up," as a text from her to a friend of hers says. And quite
simply, I like her too much to do that. I'd rather wait until she is
prepared to see me as something more than that. But God damn it, she
is so fucking hot. Recently, she has become upset with me--although
she would never show it, she thinks I know nothing of her
thoughts--over what she has heard about Annie and me.
Annie liked me a while back, but I chose my girlfriend (now
ex-girlfriend) over her. I don't regret that decision, because Annie
is a much different person now than she was then. Now, we're trying to
make things work (we have been since before all that stuff with Jess)
but she lives rather far away, and neither of us can drive. I'm seeing
her this Friday, but it will be the first time I've seen her in 11
weeks. And I can't help but wonder, even though she told me last
weekend that she would try harder to find time for me, if I will really
be able to see her enough. She also hooked up with another guy a few
weeks ago, and although we weren't, and aren't really "together" per se
because we see each other so infrequently, and although she felt
absolutely horrible about it and apologized upwards, downwards,
backwards and sideways, that hasn't left my mind.
So basically, while I'd really like to be with Jess, she isn't ready to
see me as anything more than a rebound. And while I'd also really like
to be with Annie (her and I click exceptionally well, more so than my
ex and possibly more so than Jess), she seldom has time for me, and her
little slip up a few weeks ago has me more than a little concerned. I
told her, by the way, that if we do end up together and she hooks up
with the kid again, then she can go fuck herself...I said it nicer,
So NS, what should I do?
By the way, I would post pictures of the girls, but frankly this story has very little to do with looks, and I wouldn't want them posting pictures of me on a website that I'd never heard of, so I don't want to do that to them. Sorry kids. Suffice it to say that they look very different from each other, but are both very good looking in their own right. Not like Tosh saying Jane's a solid 7. Like actually good looking. I know how to pick 'em.
This is a really good song.