oiucheekykuntThat sucks, Im still young so i think i will just completely avoid skiing and get back at it next year, but on the other hand i doubt i would get hurt in keystones bowls (probably just hike south bowl/bergmann bowl for a day) What wrongs with your your brain, do you have memory problems, and trouble thinking?
idk that i really had any problems from most of mine, especially the ones when I was younger. Maybe as they started to stack, but im not sure.
the one in 2012 I had severe head injuries for a year and a half. Actually swore at security getting into shows a couple of times for trying to/taking my ibupropen. I could be out felling alright and then BOOM fucked. Huge headache pounding. Also became very allergic to cigarettes. Def had some memory issues.
The one in 2014 was worse or just stacked on everything else. Couldn't walk that well. Like I could walk but I was wobbly. Used the walls a bit, balance was pretty shot. Also the weight of my footsteps felt like my brain was imploding. Like the sound of a jackhammer after you partied all night and are hungover as fuck. If I steps too hard, especially off a curb, I'd get super dazed.
I had to sit up mostly for a few weeks maybe more. The weight of my own head, on the softest pillows made it feel like my scull was being crushed. I'm not exaggerating either. It was wild and very painful. I didn't even know that could be a thing.
You know that feeling when you're sleeping/daydreaming and come to? I would just snap to life standing in front of somebody, and be like "were we just talking?" It would happen in public places too. Like all the sudden I was at the grocery store, or library, or some other place and wasn't sure why or how I got there. Maybe I was just outside and had to try and remember if I was with people, meeting people or just wandering.
I was supposed to leave for NZ for work but made up some bullshit excuse and went down a month later. Maybe shouldn't have gone but whatever. It was a great opportunity I didn't want to miss. In NZ a few months after the head injury there was this movie on tv that everyone had been raving about. I convinced my roommate to watch it. Watched it apparently and hated it. Next day said movie came on again. I asked my roommate if he wanted to watch it. He told me we watched it the night before, I didn't believe him. Apparently I made the same comments during the movie the second time, but no recollection of watching it the day before.
Since then if I lose something I freak out. I feel like there's an hour glass pouring out and that's all the time I have to find it. I try and remember the places I've been, where it could be. The longer time goes on the less likely I am to remember. This happened with my wallet yesterday. Somebody left one of the cats super messy, and it ended up being hidden in the mess. But I was able to figure out that I had it at work because i was tired and bought an energy drink. And I hadn't stopped at any stores so it was either there or at my house, unless i set it on my car and drove away.
But just the intense anxiety. And this is a regular thing. I lose things and forget things all the time now. I freak out, I have meltdowns over stupid stuff because I'm so fucking tired of losing shit or not remembering where it is. When you can't even remember where you were, and you were sober sometimes it's fucked. Luckily that doesn't happen often as much, but the losing and trying to find things is pretty constant.
I have multiple white boards. I'll get up out of bed to write messages to myself. Also it I've lost something I'll write reminders as to what I lost, what day, and where I think I was/it could be. I have a particular way I try and place everything every day to try and keep in check by sticking to routine.
I had a pretty solid memory. Could crush it at history, especially early American history. I have memories still, like I haven't forgotten everything. In preschool I remember we had these sheets of about 10 bears on them to color in. I was taping together 5 or 6 so that I could finish the patterns I had in my head. in 4th grade they had they had a tournament on that game simon in town. For anyone like ages 7 or 8 to 12 grade I think. I won and it wasn't even tough. Only was worth $20 and think I spent it on ice cream and candy lol. Ended up beating it 4 more times I think i fucked up 1 or 2 blindfolded though.
But now I can't remember shit. I had a friend come over a few days ago and didn't know who he was. Played it off fine and don't think he noticed, and I figured out the region and mutual friends, but don't remember ever meeting him.
If I can't find something of mine I might have a total fucking meltdown, tear my room and my car apart, freak out because I can't remember and get super depressed. It's fucking crazy.
Sparknotes, my brain isn't even as fucked as it could be but it's pretty fucked and frustrates me daily.