saskskierI definitely get where you're coming from. I don't think I'm at a place where I'm pissed yet, but will probably get there eventually. If anything, I feel bad because I don't feel much at all. That's kind of just my personality, but I guess it means I can help others without falling apart right now and deal with the questions later.
Remember to stay sane yourself. Loosing people to mental illness reaches further and hurts everyone around the victim. If guilt or regret feeling surface, you have to take a break and focus on your own personal life. Helping people with emotional issues can take a bigger toll than you can think. Cautionary tail...
I have been fighting depression since 2009 with the suicide thoughts peaking in 2010. It was at a point I was going down as much rubbing alcohol I could drink with orange juice at work. There were many causes; bad relationship with girlfriend that degrated relationship with family, work was not going as well as I hoped, but I was helping a good friend overcome depression at the same time. When I slept 3 straight days and didnt get up for 7 days...It was too late; I lost everything. My family didnt want to hear about my troubles, my friends didnt pick up the phone and my job prevents me from getting help (medical certificate includes mental illness...nice transport canada).
There was one constant throughout the whole process I was aware of. I just could not cry, scream in anger or just break down. No way to release the information in a safe way, to undo the knots in the stomach. So, I just stayed strong and just acted like everything was fine. Still today, no one suspects a thing.
After going through all of that, I picked up a few tips for someone what is dealing with a suicidal person:
-Just shut up and listen. Just shut up and dont give your opinion
-Physical contact is deeper than words, a hug can go a long way
-Remind the victim they matter in the world and the people around them
-Get them moving and excited for something.