I don’t know man, but you don’t sound like you maybe never truly loved skiing that much.
I’d try to look and question myself about what was the motivation of your action. Were you skiing because you enjoyed skiing or were you motivated by people recognition? Were you actually skiing, filming and training to get others stoked, or to get paid and laid? It’s just that there are many way to get recognition of others, to get paid and laid and they’re all results or rewards of things you do, but do you really want to spend a lot of your time doing something you maybe enjoy but don’t really like that much.
I’ve seen so many peoples have the type of speech you just had before and ending just like you did with excuses like bad condition or financial excuses. You’ll always find money for the things you truly love because they make you feel good and happy and you couldn’t live without it. For conditions it’s not hard, 20% of the days you’ll ski will be shit, 20% will be awesome and 60% are going to be average (numbers may change depending where you ski) and it’s super hard to know unless you go on the hill and check by yourself.
In the end, find what sports, activities, job and peoples to spend time with that makes you feel good and happy and you’ll never need any motivation speech. Best luck!