A few weeks ago my cousin died of an accidental drug overdose.
There I said it. But here is what I was actually meaning to make this thread about.
I have not told any of my friends or anyone I trust or look up to etc. about this event until I was encouraged by my parents to talk to my youth group leader at the church my family goes to. I have good friends at this youth group and I am friends with the youth pastor, but I really don't consider myself a "christian" anymore, I just kind of go to church on Sundays to hang out with my friends. Anyways I explained to the pastor what had happened and essentially he told me that we don't know why God lets people die, that satan was pulling my cousin to drugs, and that it was all part of Gods plan and that I should trust in God.
This really didn't help much and it might have made me more sad, depressed, and angry toward the subject. I am becoming more cynical toward my church friends and my youth pastor.
So I have somewhat come to terms with that he died and he shouldn't have died, but how can I help myself to start to deal with it and have closure?
Please be serious in your responses NS, I don't if this thread was a horrible idea or if it could be helpful.