Painkiller dependence is a terrible thing, especially when you have to be on a huge dose of them, not cause you want to , or want to get high, but to literally make it out-a bed each morning and make it thru the day without feeling like the pain is eating me alive... which it kinda is... some may not believe this because its such a high dose, even some doctors question why i am on such a high dose, well its because my metabolism is faster than a race horse and my body just goes thru these things like candy... I am on 25 mcg of Fentenly ( patches ) every 48 hrs. 6 oxy 30 mg a day. and 15 pills of valium 10 mg. so basically even without fentenly, i am on at least 150 mg of valium a day, and 180 mg of oxy a day. and like i said that not even factoring the fentenly in ( the most power full of them all ). first off i hate being on these meds, i literally have to be as they are keeping me alive. long story short , senior year of HS i got really sick with an unknown illness / disease that is destroying my body ...i have been to mayo clinic, university of washington, clevand clinic, denver national jewish hospital, etc, basically have spent all my means trying to figure out what i have. least i know what i dont have , but its touch knowing your so sick and not knowing what it is, thankgod for my gf for keeping me sain. so 2008 was my senior year, got sick and never got better just worse, used to weigh 185 pounds naked my senior year of HS , and now 5 years and a couple hundred thousand dollars down the drain i weigh 125 pounds and am still dropping. it got so bad i had to go on 24 hr a day iv nutrition for 5 and a half months , and that didnt even work, 120 k wasted. uhg ha. but ya opiates, opiods, benzos, all bad, if i had a choice i would not be on any, but like i said for some people in situations like mine its the only thing they can do for you in instances like mine. here are some pics showing how skinny i am after having my disease ruin my body and you can cleary see how much weight i loss due to sickness as well as being on a fucking mass amount of painkillers. stay healthy friends, and stay of this shit if at all possible, only if you really, really need them.