Ok, this is a really long story but I'm all confused and I don't know what to do. Basically I went out with this girl (my high school sweetheart) for almost 5 years. It was a really intense relationship, before things started to go south we both fully believed that we would ultimately get married. After high school I ended up making huge sacrifices to stay near her, which meant that I was away from all my friends and that aside from being near her I was pretty much miserable. Unbeknownst to me in my ignorant little world we gradually started to drift apart and then all of a sudden out of nowhere she left me for a total asshole cokehead. She completely ripped my heart out and I've been a mess over it for a long time. To make matters worse after she left me I moved out to Victoria to finally be where most of my friends are and low and behold she decides to move out here to, into my very building no less. As a result of that my last year has been a living hell, she's led me on like crazy, hooked up with me a lot of times only to go back to cokey again and again. Everywhere I go I've had to deal with seeing them together and it's killed me (both literally and figuratively, the guys a total psycho and he's sucker punched me and had his friends start shit with me more than a few times) but I've never been able to fully give up on her because a part of me will always love her like crazy and also because in the times that we're together it's like nothing has changed at all. So basically I've had to deal with her being with a total douchebag for over a year now while she messed with my head, wondering when it would all end. Don't get me wrong, I've had my share of fun too (I'm only human) but I've never really been close to being fully over her. Anywho, I knew her and cokey would end eventually but I never in my wildest dreams imagined that she would be the one to get hurt at the end. He's an asshole and really ugly and she is REDICULOUSLY hot (anyone who went to High North with me in 2003 can attest to that). All of a sudden tonight I find out she's dumping him cause he cheated on her (for which he's a fucking idiot cause she's BY FAR the hottest girl he'll ever get so cheating on her was incredibly stupid) and she's a total mess about it. Now I don't know how I should feel because I'm obviously stoked that she finally dumped him but I'm also upset because she's so hurt and despite her really hurting me I never wanted her to get hurt. Lastly I guess I don't know what I should do now, do I take her back even though she totally broke my heart, or do I try and forget about her? Anyone who made it this far I'd appreciate any input, other than that those of you who want to give me shit for mentioning how much I love her etc. fuck you in advance.
'Rufus, Brent, and Micus were like brothers to me, and when I say brothers I don't mean like an actual brother, but I mean it like black people mean it, which is more meaningful I think'