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I'm really sorry to hear that man. I know how you feel, I just lost my cousin really unexpectedly a couple of weeks ago and it was devastating. I hadn't seen him since the summer because of college and I just wish I had one more time. Just try and spend some time with him. I found that being around my family helped a lot also, so maybe you'll find that to help. If you ever need anybody to talk to you can pm me.
Life is fleeting, there's only so much you can do. People come, people go... Make it count while it lasts, treat people like you'd like to be treated, and live the best damn life you possibly can. Your parents probably think about you 90% of the time, and I bet your grandparents do the same - you probably mean the world to them, and I'm sure it makes them so happy just to know that you're alive and doing well.
You are probably a source of immense joy for him, just knowing he has grandchildren who will outlive him would probably be the single most inspiring thing that you could know while moving on. As long as you don't forget him, you memorialize his life. Anything you have learned from him or experienced with him is a tribute to his life. The most disrespectful thing you could do would be to put your life on hold - if he looked at you from the grave and you were an emotional wreck for weeks on end, he probably wouldn't be happy. Keep living your life in the best way possible. Thats how you respect someone's memory.
Vibes man I just lost my mom in August and I know what you're feeling. It really helped me to just hang with friends (especially those of the female variety) and to play team sports. Pm me if you need someone to talk to