i'm in cannes studying abroad, my mother "surprised" me with this trip 2 weeks ago, because she surprised me i wasnt able to save too much $$, in consequence now feeling a financial stress right now as well as well...
i feel like a waste of space. i've been trying to experience Cannes and the surrounding areas going to Museums, parties, cultural events, concerts, socializing etc. but i feel like a huge part of my life is missing and its affecting everything.
I live in hawaii for majority of the year and if i'm not in hawaii i'm skiing for a few weeks out of the year...rarely go longer than a week without surfing/skiing. yes i am blessed i guess but this also i guess is making it really hard for me right now to just chill on the beach and party? i have no desire right now to chill/party.
i feel antsy, uncomfortable, essentially miserable and i feel really lame like what the fuck am i doing being depressed in such a gorgeous place? am i really homesick? ive never been homesick before
but its like what kept me sane and able to be a normal human being is suddenly not there? i tried to talk to my roommate/friends about it and asked if they wanted to go get rock climbing gear and they all looked at me like i was crazy.
so i turn to you ns because i feel like as skiers you guys/gals would understand? because i'm almost as frustrated with everyone not understanding as i am with having trouble finding something to give me my adrenaline fix....
anyone else find they can't just chill and be a normal person on vacation?
