[RANT] so this summer i'm interning in new york city to get a taste of the corporate world and just for a good resume and shit, all fine. so what i do all day every day is sit on a computer and do research/nothing, and so do the other 100 people in my office. i just don't understand this, the mindlessness, doing the same thing every day for so long. this is my second week working and i can't wait for it to end, each day feels like a week, each hour feels like a day. sitting around in this fucking chair, adjusting positions so my ass doesn't go numb, and trying to kill time on NS. now i may sound like a spoiled little shit, but why should anyone have to do this? we only live once, so why fucking waste every day sitting at the same desk in the same office on the same computer doing the same thing, eating at the same lunch places, riding the same elevator, going in the same building? it doesn't make sense to me, and okay, money and security, what would you rather, making money and being miserable for 30 years and then retiring when you're too old to have a good time or using your youth, your good days and go skiing and do all the shit you want to do? to me, its so much more important not to be subjected to this torture every day for years than it is to not have to eat ramen noodles in a shitty apartment while skiing every day and tuning skis every night. some people love it, some people have reasons, but i just don't understand.
one example is a lady sitting next to me, every day she brings the same lunch, does the same thing, watches conan o'brien, and knits the same color thread doing the same things, i just can't stand the repetition, it's fucking terrifying. i hate the bitter reality of this world because that's the way you succeed, that's the main way you achieve security and feel comfortable so that buying a pair of skis doesn't make it so that you can't eat for a week. but no matter how much it offers, to me it's just not worth sitting in the same fucking cubicle day after day for years looking forward to leaving for 10 minutes to get lunch. all the people around me are telling me "cherish the good years, this sucks, the real world is awful" and then i'm expected just to go make a living doing this?
so to all you people getting ready to hate, this is not me complaining, i don't feel sorry for myself, i just feel sorry for all these people doing the same thing every day, fucking robots doing all the same shit for so long. i'm not some radicalist here, i got to prep school, i'm living an environment that's setting me up for this life i'm dreading but i just don't want to be subjected to this, i want an alternative, i want the impossible, something fun that also provides security
so i'm sure we've all felt this, so post here if you agree with me or if you strongly disagree, i want to hear reasons why people should keep going [/RANT]
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