I have to do this really hardcore substance abuse program as per the arrangement my lawyer got me for possession of marijuana. 2 meetings per week, and 2 narcotics anonymous meetings in addition a week. 1 family meeting per week. I had to take a semester off to deal with this shit.
anyways, sitting around with a bunch of hardcore addicts has made me think about addiction a lot.
how does addiction start? what makes someone become an addict? I used to think it was mostly biochemistry, like how some people find certain drugs so great they get addicted, and some people use them casually and can easily stop. like some of my friends who can smoke cigs but never get addicted.
but then some people, especially alcoholics, develop dependencies based on events in their lives. this is definitely true. I quit smoking a while ago but when I got busted I went right back to it.
but every cokehead out there started by just trying it once. what happened in between the first time and where they are now? maybe they knew it was addictive but thought they could try it once. they decided they liked it, and then maybe it became a weekend thing. but the main thing that leads to addiction, is the urge to seek it out next time its around. like if you try oxy once, and then a couple months later its available at some party or something, you might actively try to find it. if you never do it, you'll never try to find it.
I've also been thinking about the twelve steps. they are pretty much bullshit, especially the powerless part and the "humbly beg a higher power to remove your defects" part. (tip: dont question the twelve steps in a substance abuse program, former addicts get very defensive) I know they work for a lot of people, but in your opinion, what is the best way to beat an addiction? personally I think its all about accountability, if you have other people you are accountable to than you are more likely to stop.
also, this is pretty controversial, but i believe weed can be addictive. I was addicted to it, I was so bored all the time that I always wanted to smoke. if you dont believe it can be addictive, keep in mind that anything that feels good can be addictive. eating, playing videogames, or many things in life. just because there arent withdrawal effects doesnt mean it doesnt have the potential to become addictive to some people. two of my really good friends also have pot problems. one failed out of school because he smoked all the time and never did any work, and hes a smart guy. another smokes every day multiple times per day, and says she cant stop because she doesnt know how to feel good anymore, which is scary because shes smart, hot, and has an amazing positive personality. I never expected her to become like that. my own mother has a pot addiction problem, she only recently got over it. I'm not bashing weed, I still love it but I only rarely smoke now. now I know many people smoke multiple times per day but the difference is, I don't get any work done when i smoke, and if I'm high all the time thats bad news because I won't be focusing on schoolwork and getting errands and other shit done. this is not true for a lot of people, but for me it is.