Lately it's come to my attention that I might have a problem.... or not. The past year I have been drinking a lot. You know how college works. Pretty much at least 10+ drinks 5 times a week or more. Sometimes 7 days a week. A lot of the time I would say 15+ if I was at a party. In the past I would hit a point where I had trouble walking and felt really drunk which usaully led to passing out with the spins or throwing up and a bad hangover the next day.
The past month or two I drank pretty much everyday. I started to wake up with no hangover whatsoever, only tired if I had stayed up late the night before. No matter how much I drank I never had the spins when going to sleep. It's got to the point where beer can't get me drunk unless I pound it, alot of it. Beer bongs topped with whiskey and shit. I havent thrown up in over a month either.
Recently I have been getting worried becuase I have been drinking a lot of hard a lately to feel a buzz. I get a strong buzz which makes me happy and leads to me chugging more. Then..... blank. I come too usaully doing something a couple hours later with no recolation of what has happend. My friends tell me I am usually kinda hyper and really drunk, but functioning. Then I usually pass out and wake up the next morning still drunk but feeling fine.
I know my tolerance has gone up, but it lately it seems that I drink a TON and feel pretty sober until I wake up doing something somewhere with no memory of the last couple hours. I walk across streets and shit and interact with people who I have no memory of. Hey I know this is long and rambling, but I just got back from the bar and I have been thinking about some shit. About how easily I could really fuck my life up, or how fucked up it is already.