If you do molly...

molly is amazing but it is so fucked. Doing it maybe 1-2 times a year is alright. It has definately changed how i interact with people, has upped my anxiety in a way and probably has changed how i feel emotions. It is really glamourized in hip hop now and that is fucking sketchy. molly is the new coke and kids are going to do a lot of molly and then realize sooner or later after popping and snorting all of these lines that they are different. It can cause depersonilization and de-realization. It takes you from being  auto-pilot your whole life to having to drive the plane of your life yourself, and this can be scary. I have had this feeling many times with psychedelic drugs from ego deaths or even from smoking weed for a long time so it wasn't something unexpected from me. Let me tell you though that the depersonaliaztion from molly is a lot worse and way different than that of an ego death experience from psychedelics. Molly will leave you so scatter brained  the next day or couple of days,it can be hard to even think or remember simple things. kids go from being on autopilot their whole lives, in the moment and so sure of who they are, to one day having to drive the plane themselves. For people that have a strong mind this experience can be great though. You now have to think before you speak and create the life and the person you want to be instead of just driving autopilot you are actually creating who you are as a person now; who you want to be. This can be amazing, but for some people, they don't know what the fuck is going on and it is almost like a mid life crisis or just a crumbling down of the person you were so sure you were up until that moment. I was doing it multiple times a week this summer and at one point i was at 9 days in a row so i know my case is extreme but i had also had a lot of experience with depersoniliazation from doing a lot of lsd before that; so it was easier to cope with. I can't wait till miley cyrus becomes this social recluse freak who doesn't even know who the fuck she is anymore; haha maybe this has already happened. Molly will fuck with someone with a weak mind and it can definatly to people with strong minds too. A lot of the problems from molly come from weak minded people thinking they have more problems than the molly actually gave them, which is a paradox and makes the anxiety and mind world even harder haha. For example, we always see random things in our field of vision, like starbursting of light or visual snow in the peripherals or what ever. I think molly and other psychedelic drugs make these more noticible and when people come down from these drugs they think these visual things they see are new and from the molly. This can happen and is called hallucination persising perceptive disorder (hppd) but a lot of the time hppd is person made. The person thinks all of these changes are new and just feeding into the problem even worse. My reccomendation is to just not do molly; but if you do make sure to buy 5-htp from the grocery store for the next day. It works with the serotonin receptors and promotes brain functioning and can make the comedown and etardedness the next day a lot better. Also; get a test kit! there are so many rc's these days it is just retarded. make sure to stay hydrated aswell!

haha end of wall of text/way to long of a rant on molly

must read (it is long but read it)

http://brojackson.com/long-reads/finding-molly-drugs-dancing-and-death