knew this girl for like 2 years and never paid her any special attention. This winter at work (were both instructors) we kinda hit it off as friends because i found out she long boards and we just get along well together. About 2 months ago we started long boarding together and everything was just friendly. Once after boarding we got dinner and things escalated from there. We started chillin more and she would call me once a day. Classic shit right?
We went to a party about 3 weeks ago and ended up kissing and later had sex. A few days later we chilled had a good time and had sex again. Then the next time we went to a party she got really drunk and i found her behind a tree crying and found out she is in a weird "long distance relationship" with some military guy in cuba. They see each other a few days a year two times a year and she proceeded to tell me how much she loves him and got all weird on me. Later that night i fucked her brains out again....
We continued chillin alot and i started getting feelings wich is weird for me because i usually never get feelings for anyone, and then i found out this guy is comming home in like a week. She told me she doesnt wanna see me when hes here because shes in love with him and wants to keep there stupid ldr thing going. I told her even as just a friend her relationship with him isnt healthy and how i kinda thought we had something good and that she should maybe let him go. She kind of agreed but still wants to see him.
Even though this guy came back yesterday we planned a 3day vacation at the beach. Vacation was awesome and we got closer i feel like and had sex a bunch.
So i said goodbye to her when i dropped her off and i felt weird knowing shes gonna like go back to this poor guy and be his girlfriend or whatever for the 10 days hes here right after she spent 3 days with me laying on the beach and fucking like it was our honeymoon. Im at the point with her that i dont have much of feelings for her but do genuinely enjoy the friends with benefits thing thats been going on with us and kindof dont want to loose her to this guy. Im not mad about the whole thing because i feel like im comming out ontop on this situation because im getting all i want, good times with a cool girl and lots of sex for the summer, i just feel kinda grossed out shes just gonna go back to this guy like nothing happened with me and her and then will probably come back to me like nothing happened. is my head on right with this? I feel like what shes doing is really fucked up and kind of ridiculous? Im not upset i just feel bad for the other guy kinda.
She invited me to her grad party tomorow and this guys gonna be there and idk if i wanna see them together so i dont think im gonna go. If he wasn't gonna be there id definitely go. I dont know what to tell her tomorrow when she asks why im not going. Im thinking of straightup telling her seeing her with another guys gonna turn me orr and kinda gross me out. Or what should i say? what does ns think? im 20 and shes 19 btw