I just wanted to take a moment to remind everyone in that no matter what kind of problems you may be having or going through, there are many accessible facilities and qualified, trained professionals to help you in times of need or distress. There are always friends, perhaps a pastor or even a professor, who would be available for you to speak to and give guidance, or just listen, to the challenges you are facing. Some of you are "adults". This does not mean you are suddenly required or should have the ability to deal with everything that comes into your life on your own. Please know this is not a patronizing message, merely one to recognize there is nothing more tragic than those who feel a complete hopelessness and isolation in life and who take the ultimate vow of selfishness, and that no matter how isolated you feel, there are alternative ways to deal with depression or extreme challenges in life that may encourage erratic behaviors, like committing suicide. We have a short time alive and a long time dead, although sometimes it happens, there is never a good reason to speed up the process.
I lost a good friend today because he saw no way out. It hurts my heart and makes me sick. I don't understand and I can't help but wonder. I saw him just a few days ago, in class, smiling. We went out to the bar and shared laughs and drinks only a few weeks ago. He was a bright, funny, sweet-natured graduate student.
I just wanted to reach out to this community I'm a part of and remind the rest of you, even though we don't know each other and may never will, you are a part of something greater and your actions affect those who care about you. Please take care of yourselves and each other.
RIP to my friend, Michael Determan, you were a good man.