so i landed on my head at the olympic training center's japril cup in the end of january of last ski season.
i tore my mcl, posisbly meniscus, concussion, black eye, etc.
they said i'd be better in 2 weeks.
well, now that it's soccer season, and i'm a starter, and we have a state-championship quality team for the last time in my high school career, they decide to give me surgery the day before first regular season game.
it's just a knee scope, it's routine, just a 3 week or so recovery. whatever, i dont' want to hurt it worse, and i want to be 100% for ski season.
well, i get it, and i start therapy. my knee pusses all the time.
i get an emergency appintment at my doc, and i have 1. air pockets trapped in my knee and 2. a fucking staff infection.
it's localized right now, but if my infection doesn't get better, and it spreads, amputation and death are both possibilities. i've been feeling sick.
i'm already at least a week further in till i restart theraapy. i'm out-of shape as fuck. i will most liekly not be part of the actualy playing soccer team this year. i feel like shit. i'm fat. i'm scared i won't be better for ski season. i'm scared my fucking leg is going to get cut off.
fuck , i dont' care about my leg, i just want to ski this year a 150% of my capabiliities. knee surger ysucks. i should sue. but i'm not going to, so don't waste your breathe.
i wont drop out of high school for skiing, mom