I just wish it wasn't such a struggle. But stopping it to lose weight altogether would be like a normal straight person somehow forcing themselves to stop getting aroused by girls.
Anyway, blah blah blah, I just wanted to say that, yeah, half of me loves being this size and the other half despises it. It's an irritating struggle, really. Most of the time I wish I could just be normal.
But really it would just be nice to be in control of my fetish. I don't know the root of my attraction to weight gain, but it's not just going to go away. Ever. So, like a pedophile or a voyeur, I need to find a balance. As should you all, if you get to the 600s or 700s. Unless you have no reason to live? Then go for it.
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