fuck, it takes a lot to get me to teer up, and you did it.
gotta look at the things you have, you seem to have a well structured family that loves you. and i mean look at your situation with positive eyes, you may not have a lot of good friends around you and thats in no way your fault. be yourself and people will like you for who you are, like the second girl you spoke on. ive experienced a few deaths throughout high school, and i go to a high school with no more then 380 students, and its a good feeling for no one.
hope you have a great winter without any injuries, you always have friends on the mountain..come to NY and shred some ice with us