derstand that i understand your situation. i want you to believe that there are others that feel for you. disclaimer im fucking hammered.
so long my roomates are 2 randos in a sweetass room, and they smoked weed in my room and i have nothing against weed but i dont like them smoking in the room we share so im like dude no fucking smoking in the room and hes like ok. but he trys to be secretive bu hes stil smokes in the room so im like fuck you dude respect me dont smoke in the room and hes like fuck you ill smoke when i want ur using ur athsma as a scapegoat marijuanas fine. and im like fuck you i cant afford to get in any trouble with she school cuz of my standing already. but anyway. yesterday night we get a fucking write up under our door for marijuana. like wtf i dont fucking smoke. and so i go clear my shit immediately , i offer up a piss test and room search to clear my name he freaks out calling me a rat. im like fuck you i have no connection to u fuck this shit. im not getting in trouble cuz im in trouble with the school for other readons already and i cant afford more trouble. so im like fuck u i want u out of the room. he freaks oiut that im a snitch
WHICH IM NOT
I dont want anyone to get in trouble at all. I just dont want me in trouble most of all. cuz heres the deal. im in a situation like a montjh ago. make that 2 months ago. were walking back from the bar
werre one campus
and these 2 kids start shit with my best friend and his grilfriend.
they throw my friend to the ground and his girl over a railing. theyre about to throw a punch into best friends face then
out of instinct i dive on this kid whose threatening m,y friend.
im fucking 130 lbs 5'8"/ tiny ass litlle kid.
both of these kids are 18-190. they can fuck my world up.
and they do. i got held dowwn on the cement and punched in the back of the head repeatedly. i got a concussion, blacked out. we fucking called the cops while they runnnn off campus.
fuck this, becaouse we called the cops and told the whole story truthful, i admitted to diving on the kid in protection of my best friend. but not maliciusly, im fucking in the shithole
so now im on university probation, which means if im written up for the tiniest little thing im kicked out of Fordham. the school i fucking love.
thats like 2 months ago.
FF to today, fucking weed writeup. that aint me. i know RAs and have friends in high placesI get cleared immediately. roommate calls me a rat for clearing my name and assumes im trying to fuck him. which im not i just want a new reoommate.
this makes no sense. i drank enough to go to whitecastle tonight. and now im on fucking newschooolers? what the fuck. i respect you guys. youre awesome. you make everything aweosme.
fuck this i jsut want to fucking ski.my lifes a shit storm at the moment. i havnt drank in sooooo long. ive been so clean cuz i needed a live cleansinhg. cuz i fucking blacked out all the time. but since the beginning of this year ive been so clean and all ive done is gotten raped.fucking fuck the end.