being in public places where you know EVERYONE in the vicinity would be critical of your lifestyle if they found out
like the post office maybe...or court...
this is pretty much what the 1st response meant when he was talking about The Fear
"Just ahead, over the rolling wheatfields all golden beneath the distant snows of Estes, I'd be seeing old Denver at last. I pictured myself in a Denver bar that night, with all the gang, and in their eyes I would be strange and ragged like the Prophet who has walked across the land to bring the dark Word, and the only Word I had was 'Wow!'"