Don't wallow in a pit of self pity, instead step into the pool of reflection. Remember all of the good times that you shared, forget the bad ones. Learning something from his life and capitalizing upon it is an honorable way to remember him; live your life in a way that would make him proud.
"You put on your boots, click into your bindings, dust the snow off your skis, and head out for the chair, and it doesn't matter that you failed a test, didn't get the girl, or that your life is on a one way trip down the shitter, your world is right for the next couple of hours."
Ok, well, I may come across as a total asshole, but is this thread really necessary? I understand if you tell some people that are close to you, but to expect "vibes"? That's fucking ridiculous. Why are you asking for "vibes", what are they going to do? Make yourself feel better? Like I quoted, so be consumed by self pity. Man up, grow from the experience, and don't ask for "vibes" from a bunch of random people that won't remember someone that was extremely important to you tomorrow.
I hope your doing alight and your family as well. Stay strong and persevere in shitty situations.