im feeling really down lately. It seems nobody wants to hang out with me anymore and it fucking sucks. Im pretty sure most of you have like a BEST freind, like you kinda live at there house, you never ask to chill you just kinda show up at eachothers houses, you do like everything together. well i used to have a freind like that ( for most of elementry school until grade 9) but then we just grew apart and we dont really talk anymore( we'll call him freind 1). anyways so last year ( school year) i started being freinds with a guy ive none since grade 7 but we've never really hung out. All of a sudden we became like best freinds and hung out almost everyday. we did this all summer long then about a week before school he never wanted to hang out anymore, like id call hima nd he'd always have an excuse not to hang out and its been like this ever since.
it really fucking sucks. Like were in the same group of freinds ( a closer group in a bigger group type thing) this small group is like 7 of us and im starting to feel like the oddman out. Ive spent the last couple weekends doing nothing and its not fun.
today is a perfect example, i just called him and asked if he wanted to chill tonight but he said he couldnt because of hokcey practice.
- first off he doesnt have practice tonight because in our group there is 2 guys on the same team and they were all excited because it got cancelled. so i new for a fact i got cancelled and he was just lieing.....again.
- second off, even if he did have practice. that takes up like 90 minutes off your night, not the whole damn thing.
im not mad at him for not wanting to chill, like if he doesnt like spending time together as much then thats his choice. also i kinda realized how freind 1 must have felt because i am in the same position as he was, when i said we grew apart it was mostly me not wanting to chill with him but he still did but he eventually gave up.
I know im in higschool and people are changing and i probably wont talk to 95% precent of these people after highschool, but still. staying home on fridays and saturday nights SUCKS. not haveing a best freind SUCKS. i really miss doing lots of stuff and having a best freind.
anyways, i know you cant really help i just had to vent and get it off my chest. I wish i could just know why people dont want to chill with me.