Its true. I have recently discovered a dependancy in my life I didnt even know was there. I love coffee. I love it in all of its various forms and maifestations. I crave one in the morning while waking up for my 5 am shifts at costco, and I enjoy one during the midday when I get home from work. If I'm out and I pass a coffee shop, few things stop me from exploring the menu and enjoying a new delicious jolt of happiness or else ordering an old favourite to savour its delicious blend. Three days ago I reflected on this and after some consideration decided what my everyday life would be like without my savoury saviour. I decided to go the next couple of days sans café.
Waking up the next morning was routine. I did things as usual and barely noticed a difference, I cruised to work pre-sunrise with the window down and the music blaring. No problem. My day started as usual, however I noticed that halfway into my shift I felt unusually tired. Not just tired but lethargic. Far from my usual energetic go get-em self I was dragging my ass. Worst of all was the yawning. Every minute for 4 more hours I yawned. I was beat. Coming home from work at 130 I crawled into bed. Though with my new experiment in mind I supposed I must have come down with an illness. Never do I ever feel this tired. I slept for four hours. There I was at 530 with a day wasted either at work or sleeping in feeling like absolute shite. I went to rugby practise. Got pounded, came back at 830 and I was in bed at 9. Never have I slept so badly.
Waking up again this morning at 5 am was hellish. It was fatigue of the worst kind. spent my shower staring blankly at its tiled walls feeling like shit. I almsot fell asleep at the wheel, and arrived at work a minute late (Im usually 10 early) Halfway into my shift I could not take it anymore. Knowing that I wasnt sick but just tired. I did my best to grow a pair and hack it but I talked to my boss and left early claiming sickness. Home at 9 am I slept until 1. I woke up semi-rested but in a stupor. Mind blank and dumb as fuck I've spent my day listening to various summer albums and doing nothing at all in general. Its now quarter after nine and I'm going to bed.
I have come to realize that coffee and caffeine in general has come to play such an important role in my everyday life that I can hardly function without it. Accordingly I am going to try and go two weeks without caffeine. I will surround myself with water and everytime I crave or feel tired I'll take a drink. It can only help.
Thoughts? Comments? Similar experiances?