here is the way i look at it i graduated college in 2001 i was on the five year plan and not really tring to hard i grad with a 2.6 gpa. got out gort a good job make enough dough to do all things i want ( i rocked out with my cock out most of college and a lot i dont even remeber except it ruled. any way i am glad i have a good job now i can go where i want when i want ski locally and take about 3 extended weekend trips at least a year it is nice to have money. i regret not being able to do the ski bum thing cause it would have been fun but not i do the lets go to tahoe, or jackson hole, or steamboat next weekend and its is pretty satisfing
My friend your dilemmas sound similar to the thoughts that have crossed my mind, here are some remedies that i have contemplated, and some suggestions that have worked for me.
what i suggest you do is get involved with volunteer work (i'm looking into joining the peace corps) It'll show you that there is a lot more out there in life than just the fancy material world of the US. And you'll see how much of an impact on someone elses life you can have-- making things for the better.
you may not be written about in the record books as the greatest human alive, but you will change a few peoples lives, and you'll be able to see it happen, and this will be all that matters.
i've also gotten involved with the youth: working at a summer camp, or at an elementry school will not only allow you to find your inner child again but it also will alow you to plant many seeds of inspiration in the younger generations. It's pretty crazy how much younger kids look up to you as if the fact that you can grow facial hair automatically makes you the wisest person in the world and that you'll have answers to any problem.
not only do you provide a positive environment for the kids to grow in, but they also give you the oppertunity to grow and learn about yourself (even if they are completely oblivious to how much they teach you.)
I want to share with you a little anecdote about a speaker who came to a camp staff training, the speaker had everyone in the room, about 150 + of us write down on a piece of paper a few things that we were proud of ourselves for, and a few things that we needed to 'work on'
(right now maybe you can think of what you'd have written down)
for the most part people would write how they are a good listener, or were honest, and how they needed to work on their short temper, or their communication skills.
Out of everyone in the room one person had written 'spealing' (spelling) as something they needed to work on -- the point being that grades really don't matter in the grand scheme of things. College may be important for some peoples paths of life, but for others it's completely unnessisary, and for others going to college right after highschool just isn't the right time. Basically you know inside what is important in being a decent human being, and that those qualities are what really matter.
I wish you good luck, and i'm sure that good things will find you soon.
man i feel the same.. just try to think for a while about what you really want to get out of life and focus on the positives that are in the present.. try not to focus tomuch on the future because wats ahead is ineviatable and if school is not for you and engineering is just has to many barriers and you would prefer to do something that involves thinking about life and people and wat you enjoy which i think is skiing... theres a good career kind of life book callled "DO WHAT YOU ARE" it kind of helps you find out wat kind of person you are and explains ur feeling and what you are meant to do not forced.. to do its a good book thats not very long cause once you figure out ur TYPE u just go to that section.. it helped me discover why i behave the way i do and what i should do with my life.. hope i could help bro